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Ki Tisa: The Idol in the Middle of the Temple

2/26/2016

 
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If you only know the book of Exodus from the movies – ​The Ten Commandments, ​The Prince of Egypt, etc. – you might be surprised by its second half. After God's appearance on Mount Sinai, most of the rest of Exodus is devoted to the construction and dedication of a tent and its fixtures.

The Mishkan (or Tabernacle) is the portable sanctuary made of tent poles and hanging textiles that the Israelites built in the wilderness. It is the the focal point of the last five Torah portions in the book of Exodus.

​The Mishkan may not make a great movie, but it represents the culmination of the book's story. After God brought the Israelites out of slavery in Egypt, after God gave them the law at Mount Sinai, the Israelites needed a way to maintain their relationship with God. The Mishkan was the place where the relationship continued. It was the model for the Temple in Jerusalem that eventually would be the center of the Israelite's civilization – the place where they met with God.

The Mishkan is described in the latter part of Exodus with exhausting detail – right down to the tent pegs and the bells on the hem of the High Priest's robes. Yet, there is an oddity in the chapters that tell us about the Mishkan. Of the last five Torah portions in Exodus, two describe the design of the Mishkan and two describe its actual construction. In between these, this week's Torah portion (Ki Tisa) tells the story of the Golden Calf, the idol that the Israelites built while Moses was on the top of Mount Sinai receiving the tablets of the Ten Commandments.

Why, we might wonder, does the Torah put the Golden Calf – the most infamous example of forbidden idolatry in the Torah – right in the middle of the building of the 
Mishkan? Why is the description of the most holy place in Jewish tradition interrupted by our most devastating story of desecration?

The traditional understanding about the placement of the Golden Calf story in the book of Exodus is given by the great medieval commentator, Rashi. Quoting the Talmud, Rashi says that "There is no earlier and there is no later in the Torah" (B. Pesachim 6b), that is, the events in the Torah are not given in chronological order. According to Rashi, the building of the Golden Calf actually preceded the instruction to build the Mishkan by a few weeks. It did not literally occur in the moment between conception and realization. The story is told out of order.

While Rashi's assertion about chronology makes the narrative flow of Exodus more sensible, it does not explain why the the order of events was altered in the Torah. What does the position of the Golden Calf story teach us?

Perhaps the figurative presence of the Golden Calf in the Mishkah is meant to remind us that even the most heartfelt and holy worship contains an aspect of idolatry. There is no way for human beings to turn our hearts toward God in gratitude and reverence without, at the same time, engaging in the worship of something that is not God.

What do I mean by that? Consider what must happen within our hearts and minds when we intend to worship God.

If we engage in dialogue with God when we pray, we must first think of ourselves as being separate from God. We are here below and God is up above. God is the Creator and we are the created. However, the moment that we consider ourselves to be separate from God, we also conceive of ourselves as being self-aware and self-conscious entities. We become concerned with our own egos as much as we are concerned with God. We ask ourselves, "Am I doing this the right way? How does my praying to God make me feel about myself? Do I think it makes me a good person? How will others perceive me as I offer my worship to God?"

Those self-conscious thoughts that we bring with us into prayer may also lead to other thoughts. We begin to wonder: Is the palace I have built for worshipping God grand enough? Will God be pleased with my work? Will it be impressive enough to others? Will it bring me and my community a reputation for our piety and prestige? Will others envy us?

The moment we begin to worship God we begin to worship ourselves – in ways that are subtle and not so subtle. The moment we conceive of ourselves as separate from God, we engage in idolatry.

How can we avoid the paradox of worshipping ourselves when we want to worship God? We can try to remember that we have no real existence that is separate from God's existence. We can try to quiet our egos and allow God's presence to fill our minds.

In all humility, though, we must know that we are bound to fail. God has created us with very powerful psyches. We cannot hold onto the idea that we are a part of God for very long before our minds assert themselves and insist upon our separate reality. We cannot lose our egos entirely because – well – that's just the way that God has made us.

So, the paradoxical antidote to our hopeless egotism and inevitable idolatry is simply to be aware of it. That is why there is a Golden Calf sitting right in the center of the Mishkan. It is there to remind us that we are bound to worship our prideful selves and to lose sight of God even in the moment when we believe that we are being our most pious. We will build our idols exactly in the moment that we build our Temples. 

That is why we read about the Golden Calf this week. It is the only way that we can protect ourselves from ourselves. We remember the idol the Israelites built so that we will also notice the idol within us.


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Ki Tisa: Moses, Anger and Parenting

3/9/2012

 
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This is the sermon I am delivering tonight at Temple Beit HaYam.

If you have ever been a parent—and, perhaps, if you have ever been the child of a parent—you know about the frustrating experience of reacting to children’s misbehavior. As parents, we love our children even when they do not behave the way we want. But knowing how to love a child when he or she misbehaves is one of the greatest challenges we experience as parents.

Of course, we get angry. Of course, we are tempted to yell at them and to tell them how disappointed we are in their behavior. We also know, though, that the instinct to yell and chastise should be considered carefully. We do not want to become so angry that the only thing the child hears is a message that says, “You are bad.” We want to make sure that we get across a message that explains what we find unacceptable about the child’s behavior, not about the child’s person. We want to reassure our children that we love them while we also send a clear message about the consequences of bad behavior and our hopes for future improvement.

Good parents know that there is no one-size-fits-all solution to the dilema of parenting through bad behavior. There are some situations that might be best addressed with a mild reprimand—such as, “I saw that, Rachel, and I did not like it.” There are other situations that call for sterner consequences, such as the loss of a privilege, the demand for a direct apology, a “time out,” or paying back a loss suffered because of a hurtful action.

The question that parents should ask themselves before reacting to a child’s misbehavior—and I know this is difficult—is this: For whose sake am punishing this child? Is the consequence I am decreeing for the sake of the child’s benefit? Am I doing it because of some personal need for myself? Or, is it for the sake of some other person? When we are clear with ourselves, as parents, about who benefits from our response to bad behavior, we are more likely to make good choices that help direct the child to better behavior in the future.

This week’s Torah portion, Ki Tisa, tells us a story about misbehavior, about punishing bad behavior, and about the motivation behind the punishment. The story is one that you know. It is the story of how the Israelites built a Golden Calf, an idol to worship, even while Moses was on top of Mount Sinai receiving the tablets of the Ten Commandments directly from God.

According to the Torah, at the end of forty days on the mountain, God told Moses what the Israelites had done. God decreed that the Israelites would be destroyed for their sin and that God would form a new covenant with Moses’ descendants. Moses had to argue with God not to destroy the Israelites, and, instead, to have compassion on them. Once God’s anger relented, Moses went down the mountain with the tablets. When he reached the Israelites at the base of Mount Sinai, he heard their singing and saw their dancing as they worshipped the Golden Calf. The Torah tells us: 

“As soon as Moses came near the camp and saw the Calf and the dancing, he became enraged. He sent the tablets from his hands and shattered them at the foot of the mountain” (Exodus 32:19).

Now, you may think that you know why Moses smashed those tablets written by the hand of God. You’ve seen the movie and you remember the anger that was on Charlton Heston’s face when he lifted the tablets over his head and brought them down. It is a moment that might remind you of how angry you felt when you saw your child doing something wrong. It might remind you of how you felt when you saw your mother or father become enraged with your behavior. In our imagination, Moses smashed the tablets in anger. 

However, there is far from a consensus among Judaism’s classical commentators about this. The smashing of the tablets was certainly a consequence of the Israelites’ bad behavior, but it is not clear what feelings or motivations in Moses brought it about. Understanding that moment can be a way for us to understand our own choices as parents when a child does something that makes our blood boil.

Deuteronomy Raba, a collection of midrashim from the 1st or 2nd century, agrees with Cecil B. DeMille that the main emotion going through Moses’ mind was sheer rage. However, the midrash wonders why Moses became so angry only after he came down the mountain. God already had told Moses about the Golden Calf when he was on top of Mount Sinai. Why did he not react with anger then? The midrash even has God asking Moses why he did not get angry until he saw the idol with his own eyes. God says, “Moses, did you not believe Me (when I told you) that they built themselves a calf?”

This midrash wants us to know that it was the sight of the Golden Calf that triggered Moses’ anger. Moses’ fury was not calculated or premeditated. It was a fiery, impulsive reaction. So much so, the Torah says, that he shattered the tablets that had been written with God’s own hand.

If we follow this midrash, we could compare Moses’ anger with that of a parent who punishes a child impulsively—a gut reaction to seeing something that is not right. You might say that Moses is like a parent whose response to misbehavior is for the sake of appeasing his or her own anger.

As I said, this is not the only interpretation that our tradition offers for Moses smashing the tablets. Rashbam—a twelfth century commentator who lived in France—sees it differently. Rashbam says that Moses acted more out of despair than anger. Remember that, at this point, Moses was eighty years old and he had just carried two heavy tablets all the way from the top of Mount Sinai down to the foot of the mountain. Rashbam asks, What gave him the strength to do that? It must have been some supernatural power that came to Moses from God and from the words of Torah that were inscribed upon the tablets.

Rashbam argues that, when Moses saw the Golden Calf, that power disappeared. In the face of the Israelites reveling in their idolatry, Moses’ strength weakened, or the tablets themselves grew heavier. When the Torah says that Moses “sent them from his hands,” Rashbam believes that it is because Moses no longer had the strength to hold them. Moses cast the tablets a little way from himself so that they would not injure him as they fell. 

According to Rashbam, Moses broke the tablets for the sake of protecting himself. He did it in order to save himself from the inevitable danger posed by the Israelite’s idolatry. 

For many parents, this is a familiar story. When we see our children misbehaving it can feel like we have been sapped of our strength. We act out of despair. We feel a great weight on our shoulders and we are not sure if we are even capable of raising children. Sometimes, when we react to our children’s bad behavior, we do so in a self-protective way. We order them to go to their room—and, if we are honest, sometimes it’s just to get them out of our sight. We might yell at the children some, but it is only to keep ourselves from crying in front of them. This is another example of parents responding to children’s misbehavior for the sake of their own needs, not their children’s needs.

There is also a third possibility, and this comes from the 15th century Italian commentator, S’forno. He says that Moses neither broke the tablets for the sake of appeasing his anger, nor for the sake of protecting himself in a moment of weakness. S’forno says that Moses did it for the sake of the Israelites.

According to his interpretation, when Moses saw that the Israelites were actually happy about the terrible sin they had committed, he knew that something dramatic needed to happen to change the way that they thought about themselves. Breaking the tablets, says Sforno, was a dramatic gesture intended to force the Israelites to reconsider their values and their choices.

Imagine, again, a parent who discovers a child misbehaving. Often, the child shows immediate remorse once he or she recognizes a parent’s disapproval and stop misbehaving. Sometimes, though, the child will have no awareness that he or she has done anything wrong and becomes defiant, even after being discovered, because the child feels no shame about what he or she has done. 

S’forno says that this is the situation in which Moses found himself. Moses was genuinely angry, for sure, but he also was concerned about how unaware the Israelites were about their own deplorable behavior. S’forno says that Moses’ display of anger was calculated to get the Israelites to understand the nature of what they had done. He hoped to awaken them to a moral awareness, without which, the tablets and the Torah would be meaningless to them. 

Moses, says S’forno, broke the tablets for Israel’s sake. He hoped to make the people worthy of the tablets by awakening them to the need for a moral structure.

This is like the response of parents who feel true anger but who do not let their anger dictate their response. Instead, they think about the message that will prompt their children to reconsider their actions. Their goal is to change their children’s behavior—not by coercion—but by awakening them to the seriousness of the choices they have made, by getting them to think about what they have done, and by encouraging them to make better choices in the future on their own. 

When we see other people behave badly—whether it is a child, an adult, a spouse, a friend, a stranger, or a public figure—we can get angry. Before we act on that anger, though, we should ask ourselves: For whose sake is my display of anger? Does it do any good? Are there times when displaying anger is not appropriate? Are there ways of showing anger that are more effective?  How can I use my anger to do the most good against things that are wrong?

Of course, when the person who angers us is a child—especially when it is our own child—the stakes are even higher. Instinctively, we want to do what is right for our children, but sometimes it is difficult to know what that is. By asking ourselves these questions, by focussing on actions that serve the needs of our children first, we can make wiser choices and raise children who are ready to receive Torah, a teaching about how to live a good life.

Shabbat shalom.



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Vayetze: Righteous Anger
Ki Tisa: The Golden Calf Is Within Us

Lifting Our Hands

2/16/2011

 
Here's another thought about Parashat Ki Tisa, which we read this week. It has to do with drawing more pleasure from our food by eating with mindful awareness.

In Mei HaShiloach, the Isbitzer Rebbe comments on the verse "Let Aaron and his sons wash their hands and feet in water drawn from [the copper laver]" (Exodus 30:19). He states that the the priests cleanse themselves with water to remove the layers of their own personal desires and interests from their service, so that everything they do in worshiping God is for the sake God's will—not their own.

My study partner, Cantor Bob Scherr, pointed out that this is like the intention of the ritual washing of hands before eating. This act is called netilat yadayim, the "taking up of hands," and that is the phrase used in the blessing recited after washing. Why is it called "taking up hands"? Why not "washing hands"? One answer is that, before we eat, we should elevate our consciousness about food. 

Have you ever hungrily gobbled down a meal only to realize, afterward, that you missed the pleasure of tasting and experiencing it? If we eat just in order to satisfy our hunger, we will draw no lasting satisfaction from eating. The experience of deepest pleasure comes from mindfulness and self-awareness. When we eat just to satisfy a craving, like scratching an itch, our pleasure is limited to the moment of consumption. But, when we eat with a real awareness that the food we eat is a gift, and that by eating it we become part of something larger than ourselves, there is a possibility for a lasting pleasure that enters deeply into our souls.

This is the teaching of the Isbitzer extended from the ancient Kohanim to our daily lives. When we take the time to wash away the layers of our immediate and momentary cravings, we lift ourselves up into the joyous realm in which we allow God to enter into us.

Ki Tisa: The Golden Calf Is Within Us

2/14/2011

 
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This week's Torah portion, Ki Tisa, includes the story of the Golden Calf, Egel HaZahav, the idol which the Israelites built and worshipped at the foot of Mount Sinai, even while Moses was receiving the tablets of the Ten Commandments. 

At this point in the story, of course, the Israelites had just heard (from the very voice of God, no less) Commandment Number Two: "You shall not have any other gods before Me. You shall not make any sculpted image of what is in heaven above... You shall not prostrate before them or worship them, for I, Adonai, am your God..." (Exodus 20:3-5). Talk about bad timing...

The Golden Calf is the central image in the Jewish imagination of idolatry and the way that our dark side can separate us from God. Yet, the Golden Calf pops up in some very unexpected places in Jewish tradition. In the very places of the highest sanctity, we sometimes see reminders of the Golden Calf.

The first hint of this comes right in the story of the Golden Calf itself. In two swift verses, this week's parashah describes how Moses responded to the Golden Calf:

As soon as Moses came near the camp and saw the calf and the dancing, he became enraged; and he hurled the tablets from his hands and shattered them at the foot of the mountain. He took the calf that they had made and burned it; he ground it to powder and strewed it upon the water and so made the Israelites drink it (Exodus 32:19-20, JPS translation).

Now, why would Moses force the Israelites to drink the idol they had made? While dramatic, it seems odd. Was Moses trying to prove to the Israelites that the idol was not a god but just a thing? Perhaps. (But, you know, there are some religions in which people do ingest what they imagine to be the body of their god...)  Maybe, Moses wanted to remind the Israelites that, even after the Golden Calf was destroyed, it continued to live on, within their very God-given bodies.

Many traditional commentators have noted that the story of the Golden Calf appears in an unlikely place within the narrative of the Torah. Parashat Ki Tisa follows two weeks of Torah readings that describe the design of the Mishkan (the portable tabernacle used by the Israelites to worship God in the wilderness) and the ritual objects used in it. Ki Tisa is followed by two more Torah portions that describe the actual construction of the Mishkan. Why is the Golden Calf standing, figuratively, right in the middle of the Mishkan, God's holy dwelling place?

As if this were not enough, there is another symbol of the Golden Calf sitting in the middle of one of Judaism's holiest objects. By tradition, the box of the tefillin worn on the head (bayit shel rosh) contains four scrolls that are rolled and tied with the hair of a calf's tail. One end of this little strand of hair passes through the bayit so that it is visible from the outside. According to the Zohar , this strand of hair is a representation of the Golden Calf (Zohar II 237b; with thanks to my teacher, Melila Hellner-Eshed, for pointing this out). We place the Golden Calf as a symbol between our eyes, in the midst of words of Torah and outwardly for the world to see. Why should that be?

The Golden Calf is a reminder of the darkness that lies within us. Rather than reject and deny the part of us that keeps us distant from God, Judaism keeps it right in front of our eyes where we can see it. It is the darkness from which holiness is able to emerge. Without the Golden Calf, it seems, we would not be able to recognize or realize holiness. That is why it is sitting there, right in the middle of the Mishkan, right between our eyes.

And here is a simple truth: You cannot be happy while you are cutting off your limbs. We do not prostrate ourselves or worship the Golden Calf, but we do acknowledge it and accept that it is part of who we are. We are called upon to live joyfully in the peace of knowing that we are made with conflicting instincts and inclinations. There is no shame in having a dark side, dark feelings, and dark instincts—indeed, it is the thing that enables the light to emerge from our souls. That should be a source of joy, not guilt.

Judaism is not a religion for those who profess themselves to be all-pure, all-knowing, or infallible—which is really just a denial of our nature of light and darkness. There is something very close to the heart of Judaism that rankles against the certainty of fundamentalism. Our peace and our happiness come in accepting the idea that we are all struggling to find the path that leads us toward God because we are made both of holy stuff and the stuff that hides us from holiness. With some resolve, devotion and hard work, we can begin to know the difference between the two. 

And if we ever forget, there is always that calf's tail waggling between our eyes.

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